Weird day trending analysis…

Yesterday I had a weird day. It was like my universal balance was off or getting realigned..or maybe trying to send a clue that someone close to me needs my love and thoughts.

Today I got a call from someone very close to me telling me that a big thing had changed in her life, not necessarily for the better (or worse), it is just going to cause increased anxiety over the next few weeks. And I am realizing that is not unusual: me having a weird day = someone close to me needing love. This has happened multiple times, and here’s an example of the last time I remember it happening:

Earlier this year on a Friday in February, Matt and I decided to meet at our gym’s spinning class at 6:30am (this was when we were just friends). Working out in the morning is something I strive to do. I admire those who do it. Envy may be a better description. But anyway. On that particular day, I actually did it! And Matt met me there (he is not a morning person either) -> which is one of many reasons why we are now married.

However, even though we got there early (10 mins before the class was supposed to start) it was FULL! Not a single bike left in the room! I thought, “No big deal, I’ll just do cardio on the elliptical and watch TV.” So, I went back to the locker room to grab my headphones. Unfortunately, I realized they were still in my car, since I was planning on attending the spinning class. Again, I thought “No big deal, I’m not on a tight schedule.” So, I started searching for my keys to get my head phones out of my car…then realized they were NOT in the locker room. I had locked them in my trunk with my purse. Yet again, I thought, “No big deal, I have an extra key in my magnetic box thingy behind the tire.” Then, I went to search for it, and found it--missing. Ugh. At least I have Honda Roadside Assistance… so then I worked out, watching TV with no sound until the locksmith arrived. .. Everything about that morning was unusual… but “No big deal, because Matt is with me.”

BUT THEN, after the guy unlocked my car and I got ready for work. I saw that I had missed a call from my dad… that was really out of the ordinary. Number 1: he is just as much of a non morning person as I am (and it was still before 8am). And Number 2. He rarely calls me. So, I immediately called him back. No matter how bad things may seem, they can always be worse.

He said that my mom had been in a car accident on the way to work, and was in the hospital, but she was ok. (I am thinking, “If she is so OK why am I not talking to HER?”) He didn’t give many details, but I had such a strange feeling by the time I got to work (this might have been classified as worry), I had to go home and see her. Then, as I got closer (it is a 2hr drive), I called to see if they were home yet or needed anything and that I was coming whether they invited me or not…nope- still in the hospital… she is ok my ass. I could feel it.

When I walked into the hospital room, I saw her lying in bed with a neck brace and blood all over her scrubs on the floor. That is an image you do not want to see. We said our hellos, then I got the story. She was driving along, then, less than a mile from the hospital where she works, she took a left...and a truck popped over the hill and hit her Maxima – hard. Somehow her door flew open and she was hanging half way out, holding onto the steering wheel, with her legs being dragged as the car rolled backwards down the hill she had just driven up… and into a tree. Just before the car stopped, it rolled over her back, because her legs had made their way under the car….

Talk about a hard story to hear. I love my mom more than anything in the world. She is such an incredible person. An angel. Thankfully I heard it with her sitting in front of me telling it to me one unbelievable piece at a time. I guess that’s why my dad was so short on words on the phone. She ended up breaking lumbar number one and had to wear a back brace for the next few months. (She still wears it from time to time when it hurts). But all in all everything turned out ok and she looks fabulous now 6 months later…

You can take what you want from this post, but as I am writing, I am in awe of a few concepts:

- No matter how bad you may think you have it, it could always be worse. Keep things in perspective. Locking my keys in my car is nothing to what could have been that morning.
- Make sure the ones you love know how much you love them. You never know when something could happen. I still do not do this enough and am very bothered by it. I love my mom and my whole family more than anything, and to be honest, I do not know if they know that. I do not share it enough. They live 2 hours away, and I see them maybe once a month, but I think about them all the time. I need to give. Share these feelings more often. Not keep them internalized.
- Wear your seatbelt. When I say this, I mean: don’t take unnecessary risks. Sure, have fun, but be safe about it.
- Listen to your body. I may have lots of questions regarding faith and religion, but one thing I do know, is that a higher power does know what’s going on and communicates that with us. When something doesn’t feel right, or you are thinking about someone/thing more than usual. Reach out. If nothing more, say hello. There is always a reason.